Dear Love,
I don’t know how long it has been since the last time I called your name. It’s been so long that I can’t remember. Because you are so famous and seems like everyone around the world knows you well, I merely have had a chance to greet you. Of course, it was also my fault to have maintained a lazy relationship with you. I also was afraid to be caught by prying eyes talking to you. It’s not that I am ashamed of being your friend; I was afraid of prejudices people might have after hearing of our relationship. I seem quite cold, ruthless and rough, you know. On the other hand, you are the perfect opposite of me. I too, sometimes, wonder how a man like me could have been a friend of yours.
I think I met you first when I was in the fifth grade of elementary school. Before then, I heard about you indirectly through the grapevine. Back then, you were described to be quite romantic, cool, and awesome. In fact, that was the reason why I never reached out to you before; I thought only handsome boys and beautiful girls were allowed to be your friends. I knew that I didn’t fulfill those requirements. But suddenly, you came to me without a knock. I remember it was a girl in my class who introduced us. You, girls, came to me so fast that I couldn’t even blink my eyes, but also you, girls, vanished within a second. You mystified me, and it didn’t take long for me to know that your first name is “lonely.”
Ever since then I have searched for you so eagerly, but you never even show your shadow. Now that I try to walk away, you reveal your addictive faces. Ah, you complicated one!
Maybe you came to me now to hear my explanation for hiding away your existence from my people. Well, as I said before, I am too shy and you are too famous to be revealed. I thought confronting you in front of everyone would hurt both of us. Seems like not satisfied about my excuse, huh?
OK! I admit that I was too selfish. I was so selfish that I didn’t reveal you because I didn’t want to get hurt. But please know that the concern of making you hurt was also the reason for my hesitation to reveal your existence.
Now answer my question: Why don’t you just stick to one place? Whenever I see a girl smiling at me, you move to her slyly as if you were there ever since from the beginning. That makes me really hard to reveal you. Besides, look at those messy footsteps you have left all around me. I beg you; Please just don’t hang around a lot. Also, please be clear-at least to me. To reveal you, I must at least know where you are. But having you as a friend throughout several years, I have realized that its your inevitable behavior. But still, I am afraid that someday I might lose you. Of course, I will be searching for you whether I want to or not, but let’s go the easy way. I don’t want to wander around in vain desperately searching for you.
Wow, I never thought I would write a long letter to you like this one. This letter, I think, brought me one step closer to you. Next time, I hope I can see you eye to eye. I’ll buy you a full dinner including dessert! Let us meet soon!
Your true friend,
Paul JunSuk Lee
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